the me i know

Black defines me white suites me.
Every cell of mine exhibits a perfect example of paradox.
Having a gothic head and a saintly heart.
My sleep is deprived of dreams and I’ m the biggest dreamer with my eyes open
I disobey people for my selfish wishes but am loyal and honest above normal defined limit in my relationships.
Being mostly mum in front of people I know but very keen to meet strangers mostly defines me.
I walk as I own the whole world but am quite insecure about myself.
I preach people not have expectation but have quite a lot from the people around me even from the people who r just in my imagination.
Negotiating and peace-making are the few quality which makes me famous in my friend circle but never had a moment of peace with me.
When I loose my cool only thing which calms me down is the red fluid which runs through our veins. and I hit the wall with my fist till it rushes out of my veins.
Am I hysterical .? may be psycho
No how cam I be…I create philosophy
As a normal being I too hate good byes but have a staunch belief in “distance make heart go founder “.
I have my own dream world where I live and feel more alive then this so called real world coz there I am always a hero
Or at least create a situation to be a hero.
I am most of the time like this…………….I am or am I…?
Though I am lost in me almost all the time a self acclaimed recluse still have good social networking or pr. Can even analyze people very deeply sometime simply by there taste in movies…..
A good observer with short term memory
An impulsive writer, a coward when with himself, but famous for his outrageous acts in front of the people around him.
Cold and obstinate when things are not in his way.
Proportion of vicarious and real feeling is 2:1
No salt in tears but less then expected bitterness in tongue…
Sarcasm and chivalry blended with an unexpected outcome…
Allergic to coziness…………but people find him warm
A lot to discover….there is more of him then he knows